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Hey there. I am here! :) How ya been doing? I hope everything going well there.

And yes, I just realized that this is my first post for the year of 2012 (you know I wouldn't posted anything unless there is something that I wanna share). 

To start, I love this person very much. Hj. Bujang Ahmad @ Sulaiman- he is my granpa (my only grandparent left and I called him Paknek). For me, nothing is more important than family. So, losing your love ones is always hard. The feeling is not the same as being left by your bf or gf or even best friend (cuz that is a different things of 'love' man). The love of family is much more deeper and imagine that you have spent most of your life with them and the chemical bond is just too tight! 

As you know, my life revolves around these three places-Selangor, Kuching and Bintulu. Although I live in Penisular, my heart is strongly attached to Sarawak (and I somehow hope that my partner is someone from my own place). And now, going back to Bintulu might be so dull for us. The only things left is memories but yet I am very grateful for every single moment that I've spent with him. 

Until today, I can still feels that he is still alive and close to us. And I know Paknek is resting well in His place (Insyaallah). May Allah include Paknek and my other grandparents among the pious and the righteous. 

Raya 2011

Raya 2010

*Although Paknek is not around, I really hope that our family relationship will stay strong as before. 

I bet, everyone has their own story for this. So, be strong to you as well. See ya next time :)

I'm Officially Graduated!

22/10/11 was the date that I shouldn't forget in my life. I should've printed it out with the biggest font and stick it on my bedroom wall because that was my convocation day! Lol.

Happened to be fall on a rainy Saturday morning, I've had a mixed of emotions. I am (freaking) nervous, excited, fear, proud, sad.. Everything! And I'm so cold! My parent didn't know anything about the big thing I'm gonna face on that day. The only thing they knew was I'm going to be on stage for a speech, as a student's representative. Sorry, I lied. There's sumthng else behind :o I am one of the recipients for the special award. My intention was (1) To give them a surprise. (2) To avoid myself from crying (Hehh???). So, the VIP pass was given to them a day before so (at least) they know that they don't have to sit at the back and watching me from a far distance.

At the banquet hall, (Omg!) it was very crowded. I can't tell how noisy and chaotic things round me. It looks like I'm at the pasar malam or watching a concert. But then, I found this one familiar face-Kak Syazie with her parent. She wore a pink jubah (for a master student) and that's why I can easily recognized her. Lol. When the marching has started (sounds like a soldier..lol), I cant stop whirling my eyes looking for my parent. And as what I expected, they're sitting in front of the stage, just behind the CM's wife. Things went so smooth along the way of getting my certificate and award from Pehin Seri. My beefeater stick very well on my head and I didn't fell in front of the audience. Pheeww! I can hear the sounds of relief there. Lol. Oh ya, credits too Lynn for giving me her extra pin. You're my savior.

After all, it was a very hectic day for me. I didn't get a chance to get a 'proper' picture with my parent, sisters and cousin. I blame the press for it. Lol. No worries we went to the studio on the next day (at Copal Digital) and I loved the pictures!!! (p/s: the good thing about this studio is they gonna satisfy you with a high quality pictures, BUT they own the copyright. They won't give you any soft copy...hishhh). Anyways, despite of the happiness I've had which is clearly written in the newspaper, being announced on Tv and shown in photos... here, I am personally wants to thanks these person (apart of my parent and siblings) for all their kindness along my 'little journey' of achieving my degree. And for sure the received award is truly dedicated to them.

First. My late Granpa and granma Hj Raili and Hjh Rafeah (my dad's side) as well as Hjh Fatimah (my mom's side). I'm sure they're very proud of their granddaughter. Along the 3 years, my granpa was the one who always waiting for me at the airport and send me back to unimas whenever I'm at the kampung. Untill now, whenever I'm in his bedroom I'll always remember this..(when I'm sleepy) I'm getting my own mattress and place it on the floor, next to his bed. Yet, he also wake me up and ask me to turn off the tv in which I had fall asleep unconsciously...Those memories will always be in my heart and I'm so thankful of being able to be with them. May Allah include them among the pious and the righteous.

Second. My cousins. Kak Ina, Abg Awang, Kak Ti, Abg Yazid, Abg Man and Kak Ima for the ride! I need to be away from unimas and from stress somehow.. so thanks for fetching me up :) "Its really worth fetching and sending you back to college!"said Kak Ti. Lol.

Third. My family in Bintulu during the three month of my industrial training. Thanks to my aunty for being my mom for a while...Hehe. And to my beloved Paknek, Hj Bujang who always worried if I came back late from work. :)

Fourth. My friends and bestie! You know who you are and thanks for the great time that we've spent together over the three years:)

Fifth. SMDS people, classmate, lecturers and my other friends who never stray away from me and for the support given Thanks a lot!:)

*Yawn. I think its better for me to stop here. I wrote too long and mumbling a lot. Yeah, till we meet again next time! (till I have sumthng to write, lol) Have a nice sleep ^^

With Vice Chancellor, Sarawak CM, Unimas board of directors chairman and other recipients. Taken by: Jeffery Mostapha

Credits to Wendy. I love this :) Hard to get man...

Luff

Hey guys!! It has been a decade I didn't posted anything here! And then all of a sudden the topic is LOVE? (meoowwwww!) Yes. Love..(euwwwwww!)lol

HAHAHA...

Well, ignore me cuz I've never experienced it before. Maybe that 'Mr. Don't Know Who' is still (blur) looking at the world map on how to reach me here.lol. Recalling bout the past, I should congratulate this one special person who has been patiently waiting for me to reply for his 'proposal' (he's not mine anyway). He already found his mate now:)The reality (at that time) was 'Hey! You're my best friend!'. And the factual thing now is a man does have time for waiting. (Shoot) Whats the nonsense thing m saying here?lol

Okay. Back to the real purpose of what I wanna share here. It is something that I've came across over my friend's facebook. Wanna know what is the real love? Here is a great except by Stephen Covey. 'Love is a verb'. Have a read:)

At one seminar where I was speaking on the concept of proactivity vs reactivity, a man came up to me and said, “I like what you are saying. But every situation is so different. Look at my marriage. I’m really worried. My wife and I just don’t have the same feelings for each other we used to have. I guess I just don’t love her anymore and she doesn’t love me. What can I do?”

“The feeling isn’t there anymore?” I asked.

“That’s right.” he reaffirmed. “And we have three children we’re really concerned about. What do you suggest?”

“Love her,” I replied.

“I told you, the feeling just isn’t there anymore.”

“Love her.”

“You don’t understand. The feeling of love just isn’t there.”

Then love her. If the feeling isn’t there, that’s a good reason to love her.”

But how do you love when you don’t love?”

“My friend, love is a verb. Love — the feeling — is a fruit of love, the verb. So love her. Serve her.
Sacrifice. Listen to her. Empathize. Appreciate. Affirm her. Are you willing to do that?”

In the great literature of all progressive societies, love is a verb. Reactive people make it a feeling. They’re driven by feelings. Hollywood has generally scripted us to believe that we are not responsible, that we are a product of our feelings. But the Hollywood script does not describe the reality. If our feelings control our actions, it is because we abdicated our responsibility and empowered them to do so.

Proactive people make love a verb, Love is something you do: the sacrifice you make, the giving of self, like a mother bringing a newborn into the world. If you want to study love, study those who sacrifice for others, not expecting anything in return and even for people who offend, turns the coldest shoulder or do not love in return. If you are a parent, look at the love you have for the children you sacrificed for. Love is a value that is actualized through loving actions.

Proactive people subordinate feelings to values. Love, the feeling, can be recaptured.

- Covey, S.

*This is how we should view Love. Be proactive. Love your family.Love your partner.Love your friends.Love your fellow beings.Love yourself. Love Allah.:)

S.I.X

Today is d fourth day m at home and the fifth day I left kuching. My arrival last saturday was terrible cuz my dad had wrongly waited fr me at lcct instead of klia ( i flew wif firefly, not air asia). So, I had to wait longer than usual (too bad..)

Nyway, m gonna miss d moment m in unimas (fyi, unimas is in sarawak). Every single moment. Recalling back my first year in unimas, (tbh!) i dont wanna step my feet ther. Y? that was totally not my choice. I even made an appeal to upm (fr fud tech and approved) but I dont go fr it as I feared of becoming second intake whch I dont think I can survive (fr 3 years) like m in matrix (my classmates are friendly and approachable). I luv H4P6!:)

In unimas, Debbie is my loyal friend from the first day of lecture. A tiny Iban girl frm miri (fyi, she's my first Iban friend) she may looked silence but knowing her fr 3 years- she's a queen of laughter! We're walkin to class (before getz comes in), dine together, clubbing (primu), LO-ing, k-boxing and catching  bus in d rain (d most funny!lol) and kfc-ing every weekend. Not to forgot, aisyah-my partner in crime.lol. She's my sister + permanent assistant+pairwork+client (and we are..banting girl!lmao).One may think she's sombong and unapproachable (I think d same way too) but believe me she's kind. Never tot i can met someone that matched (my silliness brain) me. The funny thing is everyone think we're roomate (not yet, until d third year). Also, thers a lecture who mistakenly mentioned our name.lol. Another thing is if others cant find her, they will ask me. (pheww) that kind of question was sumthing dat I'd always expected. Declaring her as romie-d psychosis become worse. Lots of things had happened (both terrible and good things). Only I noe:)

Then, ther comes others characters-irene, dewi and marthya. I get to know these girls frm debbie. Neva tot I'll get close wif em. I know dewi cuz shes was a diploma holder. Irene and marthya-i just noe their name frm d attendance list.lol. During d first intersession, I often went upstairs fr dinner (wif syira, azie and deb). Irene and dewi we're deb's housemate. We start getting close when we went to damai (fr picnic). At that time, marthya's role has not comes in yet. Her role comes in on d next semester. Marthya is an Iban-Chinese girl. She's a very fast talkin person n we cant talk wif each other cuz it'll look like a disastrous conversation.rofl. Dewi is a soft spoken (but kenja :P) girl. She's my diving partner (u jump, i jump!lmao!). Irene is a good and wise girl. Somehow, she can get angry easily (d most thing m afraid of). Someone who always get attacked by me (teasing her wif Mr. B d mechanic:p. To conclude: we're d 6 gays!^^

Sorry, gotta stop here (tho thers o many things I wanna says here).My lappy and I nid some rests. Nyway, see ya again!

with aisya (middle) and deb (right)

from left: me, marthya, aisya, irene and deb..front: dewi

p/s: (Guys, if read this) Wheresoever you are, keep in touch, avoid any negative perceptions. Learn from lesson kay. Sure we dont wanna feel awkward later (you know what I mean right? :)) See ya on convocation day in oct!^^

HR-no regret

Often, we tried to be better each day. More better from the previous day. But, somehow, we can not easily predict awful thing from happening in our life. That’s all beyond our control. Well, that’s just a piece of “hell” which definitely paid-off later. Got to hear such fuckin words, yeah.. that’s what I shud be trained for. .and (shit!) that’s what an HR is being paid for! Anyway, I’d been searching for somethin in book and found this. Its kinda remember me abt my 1st year in matriculation cuz it was witten when I was there..and (know what?) that was a place that I wont suggest any of u to go (unless u’re mentally prepared to be insane.lol) So, here it is...

I’m a good person

I’m special & unique

I’m creative & talented

I can set goals and reach them

I can solve problems

I can ask other ppl for help

I have a right to be imperfect

I have a right to make mistakes

I can learn from my mistakes

I’m valuable & worthwhile

Just d way I am…

I can get thru this

I’m learning and growing

I’m not alone

:)

Have you....?

Have you ever felt like you wanna be in unspoken mode cuz you’d been talkin too much?

Have you ever felt like you wanna say sumthing cuz u cant be silence any longer?

Have you ever felt like you wanna stay on ur mom’s side cuz she’s d only one who understand you?

Have you ever felt like you wanna choke someone cuz they act annoyingly?

Have you ever felt like you wanna be in someone else’s body cuz they’re amazing?

Have you ever felt upset cuz your best friend seems to ignore you?

Have you ever felt like you’re alone in a dark and no one gonna helps u?

Have you ever felt like showing your emotion too much is not always good?

Have you ever felt like your life ends knowing the fact that you’re gonna loss him?

Have you ever felt your adrenalin pumping so fast without knowing the reasons are?

Have you ever felt like it is helpless to help someone hopeless?

Have you ever felt like you hated someone for no (good) reason?

Have you ever felt that knowing is better than wondering?

Have you ever felt it is joyful when you make someone else’s life full of contentment?

………………………..

Have you ever felt like any of these before?? That’s a question for you.

Whatever it is, believe me… a person’s feeling is the hardest part to deal with cuz a person’s feeling don’t have one exact answer like a math problem.

Till we meet again guys:) and have a wonderful day:)

2011

Guess wht? We're naw in the year of 2011!

I woke up @11 and I think it is a good starter fr today 1/1/11; then took a bath while listening to britney's songs ( hit me baby one more time!lol) Before that, i got texted by my beloved mentor, Sir Philip wishes me a happy nu yer. Thanks that was nice (and double thanks fr waking me up:))

Talkin bout new year I bet everyone has prepared a list of aim they want to achieve fr this beautiful year. Tbh, I dont prepared such thing each year. But, the only thing I got is a simple goal that specify my short term and long term goals (sounds like career development subject.lmao). To share some, I want to maintain a good pointer and to be excellent in study (by getting the first class honor, insyaallah). Since I havent got any placement fr my internship, I hope I'll get a good one later. Then, get a good job that suit wif my major:) Well, dont wanna talk much bout it. Just c how far this thing can brought me. Thats fr the study. Others are personal and I dont think m gonna share em here:)

Anyway, not to forgot, I'll nid to catch my flite tmrw evening to kch. Ready to go bac to school huh?:P Emotionally, its quite hard fr me to leave. But half part of me says that you wont realized that time moves fast. Yeah, thats true. Keep myself busy and I wont realized it then:) I took 5 subjects wif the total of 19credits this sem (worklife balance, strategic HR, HRIS, OSHA and fyp II). I dun dare to get enrolled in shiela class. Sorry miss!! We'll get contact in faculty ya!>_<

So guys, that all fr my first new year post:) May us be blessed throughout. Happy goodbye 2010!
*reminder: dun forget to bring along teddy tmrw^_^